Just Like You

Well, I finally gave up on you,

Took me long enough right?

Yet I’m still waiting

Waiting for someone exactly like you

Well, not exactly, cuz he’d leave me hanging too

But someone that looks like you, and smells like you, and acts like you

But someone that looks at me more, smiles at me more, and wants me more

Someone that likes talking to me because he likes me

And not because he likes the sound of his own voice

Someone that likes to look good,

But not so good that he expects perfection in the girl he dates

Someone that likes to travel,

but that would want to explore me more than the world

Someone that loves to be active,

but not active enough to never be around when I call

Someone that works hard,

But not hard enough to expect the world to owe him something in return

Someone that is experienced,

but not enough to make me feel like a 12 year old child

Someone that is mysterious,

But not enough to keep me guessing for as long as you did

Someone strong, but not enough to bruise me this bad again.

Someone almost identical to you

Someone just like you,

Just…not you.

Why is it, that the picture worth a thousand words- leaves me speechless!?!

Life is a highway; Love is a rollercoaster

Look- no hands my friend, 

I rode this one out to the end

Even made it through the dips and turns

I patiently waited my turn

all for this brief 8 second ride

but don't get me wrong- it brought me life

The trip was worth the wait, the adrenaline was great

It brought the butterfly feeling back into my being

I'd forgotten what that rush was like and I realize that it just might

be the reason I found life again- the reason I can breathe again

The reason I can see again, it's the reason I'm me again

I've overcome so much fear after letting go and letting you steer

I'd love to ride this one thru again, but it wouldn't be the same adrenaline

It wouldn't last more than 8 seconds longer

and I doubt it'll keep making me stronger

So even though it ended 8 seconds from the start

I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart

It really sux to let you go, but I learned more than you'll ever know

Thanx for opening my eyes.

Thanx for the ride.

Nothing in My Power

Worried to death

Take one more breath

Body’s turning pale

Just inhale . . . exhale

Remind myself to breathe

Allow myself to grieve

I can’t let this fear

Consume me here

My life’s coming unwrapped

I feel like I’m trapped

In this sphere of sorrow

But I can’t let it show

Must hold composure

I need some closure-

that I know will never be received

I trusted, I believed

Now I feel a bit like Job

Under a working strobe

Moving in slow-motion

Drowning in life’s ocean

Getting thrashed by the waves

Needing to be saved

But left on my own

Getting brutally thrown

Whichever way the wave goes

Or whichever way life blows

Need a shoulder to cry on

Or just someone to listen

But there’s not even one

I have no one

There’s nothing I can do

No route to pursue

Just focus on air

And a sincere prayer

Constantly on my tongue

And breath in the lung

I can’t feel this empty

Let this pass from me

Inhale . . . exhale

I will prevail.

Addiction and Subtraction

Second-rate salesmen skillfully sell soft served ice-cream on the sidelines

However, they hand out hollow holocausts of false fantasies for Satan

When intoxication ignites the idle minds

Problematic pride punctures a picture-perfect life,

Profiting no one but Satan’s salesmen.

Burning bridges and building burdens of broken promises or bonds

The drunkards drench their drifting dreams

with tireless tears that they callously cry.

Moving memories of willful wrong doings and left-handed handshakes

turn the meandering mid-summer day’s dream

into an overcast obsolete obituary.

Tonight Is Different

Gazing up, through my open window

It’s not the same, It’s not normal

The stars are noticeably dimmer

Their brilliance is less brilliant

And my awe for them has faded,

Along with their luster.

Billions grace the heavens

Each so small and delicate

So distant and infinitely lonely

Blinking, burning out, and dying

As we humans, all do as well

The breeze, finally cooling after the heat of summer love,

Plays with my hair and gently whispers on my neck

Making me miss something as I stare at the sky

Not quite sure what I miss- just something

Possibly something as distant as the fading stars

Hopefully it will come to me soon

I close my window and my eyes, and fall asleep alone

Possibly as alone as the stars

Needing Thee

Hypocritical mockers in feast

They gnash upon me with their teeth

With false contempt, haughty heads hold high

They glare down upon me with their eye

Silently laughing me to scorn

Nevertheless I do not mourn

Their worldly ways and misguided minds

Won’t trap me in their chains that bind

No matter how eloquent of words or strong the force

They will not make me fall off course

Love me, guide me, teach me thy word

My way is Thy way, lead me forward