This Time

Of course you’ve come back, you can’t stay away I’ve found
But there’s one thing that has changed this time around
This time, I’m not torn to pieces and in shambles on the floor
and for the first time after the million others, I don’t want you anymore
I don’t long for your touch, I don’t dream of your eyes
I don’t hold out for you while swimming in a sea of guys
The pedestal you stood on has finally collapsed
And has left me somewhat regretful of the past
Cause now I know better and I stand more reserved
I gave you more credit than you deserved
I’m disappointed in my ability to know good from bad
And let down that I gave you all the respect I had
I don’t hold anything against you cuz the fault is all mine
It’s just so nice not having to shield my wounds from your brine
And it’s nice not having wounds from your words anymore
I’m so happy that this time is finally different than before
Sorry to drop the friendship, but we really weren’t ever friends
I was your confidence boost and you -my hopeful means to an end
Hopefully you can find a girl that makes you feel like I made you feel
And hopefully the next time I fall for someone it will actually be real.