Tuesday, October 30, 2012

But Then

My day begins normal; just like most others
I wake up, wash my face, brush my teeth, and get my breakfast to-go.
I get in the car and hit the road to work
But then…but then, it happens.
Something triggers me and snaps me out of reality
The need, the addiction throbs like a headache
Or maybe it causes the headache-
Either way, the throbbing makes me wake up
It makes me drive a little faster
Nothing beats getting this fix.
I missed this feeling; I crave this feeling!
The itch hits like a rhythm-keeping bass drum
No, it IS the rhythm-keeping bass drum
I blare my speakers at full capacity
I necessitate the rush and how it flows through my veins
The need drives me…
But then…but then the song ends.
I turn the volume down, but my smile remains.
My day continues normal; just like most others. 




Thursday, October 25, 2012

Unexpected Moments


As I sat next to you
Our conversation brought us to things I’d never talked about before
I shared secrets
And realized I left myself exposed
Stripped of the walls I kept so high
Walls I had never let fall until that moment
Showing you who I really was
Hoping you’d accept me for every little imperfection
I searched your eyes for an inkling of what you’d say
Finding you impossible to read,
Insecurity swept over me and caused my cheeks to flush
I longed for my old walls to bury me
Bury me under the embarrassment of this eternal pause
I shift in my position to stand and walk away
But you took hold of my hand and pulled me into you to save the moment
You kissed my lips with a tenderness I never knew existed
A kiss so soft I had to peek to make sure it was real
Our first kiss couldn’t have been at a better moment.
You promised there would be many more to come
And I’m looking forward to each and every one.