What If

As I sit pondering under this shade tree

I want nothing more than for you to want me

Every text or call I get I wonder if it’s you

Every one that walks by I look up, to view

Cuz “what if’s” fill my thoughts

Instead of the “is” and “is not’s”

What will I do when we arrive at the same party?

It’s bound to happen sometime. I just hope you say you’re sorry

What will I do if you walk my way?

My mind races with things to say

I wish you just realized you can’t live without me

I want to turn you down so badly

I wish you would try to make amends

And I want to tell you that I only want to be friends

I want to give you the closure that I never got

And to leave you astonished in your own thoughts

I want you to grovel in your own tears

And I want to fulfill one of your worst fears

By turning you down after you said all you can say

Then not even look back as I walk away

As I wonder about all the things I want under this tree

I want nothing more than for you to want me

Lost Within

Hazy dreams with weary eyes

Lost in a mystery of hazy skies

Pacing in circles not knowing where I’ve been

Panicking cuz I don’t know where I am

Will I ever find my way back to familiar ground?

Will I ever be rescued, will I ever be found?

Thick as molasses, I’m surrounded

This fog has me confounded

For it represents my inner turmoil

I’m practically convulsing trying to mix water and oil

My issues are multiplying and are getting the best of me

As I fail to strain the salt out of my endless sea

The confusion finds my eyes and out it seeps

And empties my soul as I long for sleep