What If

As I sit pondering under this shade tree

I want nothing more than for you to want me

Every text or call I get I wonder if it’s you

Every one that walks by I look up, to view

Cuz “what if’s” fill my thoughts

Instead of the “is” and “is not’s”

What will I do when we arrive at the same party?

It’s bound to happen sometime. I just hope you say you’re sorry

What will I do if you walk my way?

My mind races with things to say

I wish you just realized you can’t live without me

I want to turn you down so badly

I wish you would try to make amends

And I want to tell you that I only want to be friends

I want to give you the closure that I never got

And to leave you astonished in your own thoughts

I want you to grovel in your own tears

And I want to fulfill one of your worst fears

By turning you down after you said all you can say

Then not even look back as I walk away

As I wonder about all the things I want under this tree

I want nothing more than for you to want me