Rivulets

It’s been a while. She doesn’t even know why

But rivulets meander from each azure eye.

On this very moment and for this very season

She doesn’t have or need any particular reason

It’s just one of those days where emotions run high

And the only way to placate them is to cry

So in the solitude of her room and comfort of her bed

She frees the contents burdening her head

They escape through the windows to her soul

As she convinces herself that it’s ok to let it go

Oh No

Open mouth… insert foot
What the crap am I doing?

I can’t help but blurt out words I’ve been feeling for weeks
As I kill the only relationship I care about at the moment
Great idea!
Everything I know not to do, is for some reason what I am doing
I’m going about it all wrong
I can’t help it;
I’m spewing words at you like you gave me food poisoning
I’m in a blunt mood and am so freakin sick of your games
So I’m calling you out on your crap
I’m not sugar-coating a dang word
You take my words as they come 
-like base-balls flying at your head
You dodge most and try throwing them back at me
But I can tell some hit you in the gut
I quickly kill you off as a potential suitor
as if that’s what I wanted to do all along
 Go me!