Round 1

You liked what you saw and got what you wanted

Left shortly after, but my mind you still haunted

I cowered to your coercion, then built up such a strong aversion
That I prayed to never see you again, in case I tried to kill you then
All the memories I almost forgot –
The memories I fought so hard to never remember
Now chase me like a ravenous dog smelling fear
I tried so hard to erase you and I finally did
But you found the canister of my memories and removed the lid
I never expected to remember all that past,
But I did when you found me at last
To bruise my heart again, I surrender already and let you win
Falling into pieces wanting you to call
While thinking to myself about how quickly I fall
Forgetting how you hurt me before
I’m coming back into the ring for more
You finally call to begin round two and I give up all to see you
Convincing myself that the words you said –you meant
Thinking this time will be different
Opening your apartment door- your lust you flaunted
You liked what you saw and got what you wanted . . .
 

You’re All The Same

 

You take a mental photograph

Of my face…and my a**

Liking what you see

You smoothly approach me

Liking what your mind stirs

You ask for seven numbers

Too nice to say no

I reluctantly let them go

As my digits escape my lips

You write them on paper strips

Brewing dirty thoughts in your mind

Thinking I’m the next girl wiling to grind

You think a brief night out on the town

Is a sure ticket to lay me down

Anything for the first chance

To get into my pants

How did you read my face,

To think I’d let you get to any base?

Let alone steal home –

I’d never even go alone

Anywhere with you

Let alone do what you think I’d do

Do I have slut, painted on my forehead

Does it say, “I’ll sleep in anyone’s bed.”?

Just cause I’m hot and have a nice body

Doesn’t mean I’ll go home with you after the party

Just cause I smile and ask what’s up?

Doesn’t mean I’m gonna give it up

I see your beady little eyes roam

And your mouth begin to foam

As you undress me with your eyes.

Just like the rest of the guys,

You think you know me well. I disagree,

You don’t have a chance in hell with me

I don’t know who’s fault it is or who’s to blame

But you’re all the same – all the same!

Nothing to Write

Dirty crumpled paper and a running out pen

Aren’t the best things to help me find inspiration

I stare at the wall and twiddle my thumbs

But still no inspiration comes

Wanting to write the perfect poem

But I can’t stay focused- my eyes just roam

Around my purposely darkened home

I try to get myself in the writing mood

But unwanted words and images want to intrude

Leaning on my right arm it begins to go numb

But still the inspiration does not come

I listen to the deepest music to set the tone

I even turn off the phone, but my mind is set in stone

It refuses to think of anything good

It chooses to close up now- it would!

Still can’t think of anything to write

So I’ll doodle anything just in spite

Of the tricks my mind wants to play

My mind is the inspiration for this poem today

Over You

I use to worry in the past, cry about why it didn’t last

Wonder how the sparks were lost willing to fix it for any cost

Wonder what I did wrong but I’m singing a different song

What goes up must come down

But I’m not gonna let it get me down

I’m holding my head high

Gonna smile and get by

I’m finally over you

And I’ve got nothing else to lose

You aren’t the greatest thing I ever lost

The risks too high I can’t afford the cost

I’m letting you know I’m losing you so I’m letting you go

Falling out of love with nothing to fall short of

But with what gets lost something else is found

So I’m not gonna let it get me down

I’m holding my head high

Gonna smile and get by

I’m finally over you

And I’ve got nothing else to lose

Your stupidity is not my fault

You mixed sugar with salt

And poured it into open skin

Funny that I just let it in

I Let you make me insecure but I’m going to endure

Because what goes around comes around

So I’m not gonna let it get me down

I’m holding my head high

Gonna smile and get by

I’m finally over you

And I’ve got nothing left to lose

So many things to gain instead, no more rain clouds over my head

Only blue skies from this day on cause you’re gone

Even when things don’t go my way I’m gonna have a good day

You’re never gonna see me wearing a frown

Cause I’m not gonna let it get me down

I’m not gonna let you bring me down