Knowing That I Don’t Know

“I love you” shouldn’t be so hard to feel and say

This far in, I really didn’t think I’d see this day.

Silence builds the distance we need

To dream of getting the lion’s share instead of this chicken feed

We do nothing to collapse each other’s walls

Waiting for the other to change their faults

I’m thinking maybe we have voids that the other can’t fill

And maybe we’d be better off with someone else that will

but by even saying that alone, my mind fills with fears

Powerless to stand, I crouch to the floor, bowled over in tears

I don’t know if things will get better

I don’t know if we’re still good for each other

I’m scared this might be my only opportunity

to get married and have a family

but part of me doesn’t know what else to do

than get off this rollercoaster while I still have time to

I don’t know if we are God-granted

Or if we’re just taking each other for granted

I just know I don’t know what happened

It just feels like we’ve reached the end.