No
amount of time could fix what we turned into
Tho
just as frustrating; we weren’t a rubik’s cube
Our
colors didn’t match on each side
With
what once was perfect- life has morphed into strangers
Making
it ok to finally walk away
But
as hard as you try – you cannot convince me that I walked into the knife each
time after you stabbed me time and time again
For
one year you kept me on eggshells and jerking rollercoasters
Pushing
and pulling and taking and taking… and taking
Until,
like the giving tree, I had nothing left to give
I
gave up on your charades and you finally dropped the façade
War
started raging in my heart
with so many frustrations and unanswered questions
You then called check mate, but come over with your white flag waving
No
questions answered
You
took the coward’s way out
How
did I forget that you walk away when times get hard?
When
feelings need to be mended and kind words need to be spoken
You
decide the fun has turned ugly and we are unfixable
Why
would I think you would want to superglue a cracking foundation?
You
let your past marriage decay and crumble,
convincing yourself she was the
bulldozer.
Our little red caboose has derailed, crashed,
and burned
You
watched it burn to the ground with tearless eyes
And
as much as I want to be optimistic about life
There
are no more “I think I can’s” in this relationship
I
now know I can’t
I
can’t give you your side of the fireworks
I
can’t be a magician psychic-
I
can’t read your mind and abra-ca-dabra your life perfect
I
can’t be the blame for any or every unhappiness in your toxic heart
I
can’t be treated the way you treated me any longer
And
I can’t believe it took me so long to say goodbye
I
can no longer write about you or speak your name
This
is my final farewell
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